stuff

firstly, i'm going to DIE. english essay is due in 3 days. i haven't started at all. and i'm still here typing this blog. haiz. what is wrong with me??! partly cos i have absolutely no idea how to do the essay. partly cos i'm just downright lazy. 2 essays due next week. plus my psych lab reports still not done either. sigh. get a grip girl. think of going SEP! you need this grade!!

and secondly, i'm still sick. but at least, i'm recovering the use of my voice. but still coughing like crazy. i don't know what's worse. not being able to talk, or coughing my lungs out. sigh. you don't appreciate the value of your voice until you can't speak for a few days.

iris is asking me to handle logistics in the nus choir exco. not sure. it'll be good exposure. but then, i wanna go exchange. means 2nd half of year i'll be gone. and that's not really a good thing. see how lah.

and then, jumping on the "complain about LC" bandwagon. i know this will probably not be read by the target audience. but...i was kinda disappointed by their attitude last night. i mean, i know it's saturday night and we all have better things to do than come for choir and learn that stupid song. but you were already there for that fixed amount of time. is it so hard to just concentrate on what's at hand? i know you're all eager to go clubbing, home to sleep, watch tv, do homework (ok, maybe not that). you all came late, so you can't expect to leave early. fyi, i do plan according to the time what i'm gonna do for practices so it is possible to end on time if we start on time. i'm trying my best. i know i'm not the world's best teacher/leader/conductor. but i expected you to have the discipline enough to know when is the appropriate time to do what. you're not children. last night was a complete and utter lack of discipline on your part. just because i lost my voice and can't yell at you all doesn't give you all the permission to just misbehave. if you all think that i'm not worthy enough for your respect as your leader, then go ahead and appoint someone else. sometimes i'm just sick of this weekly battle of wills between us.

to your credit, at least you all turned up early for mass today. i didn't expect that. thank you for that. "prepare ye the way" wasn't perfect, but at least, it wasn't screwed up.

mood: very frustrated
listening to: someone's karaokeing/radio blasting "you raise me up"